2nd Anniversary

Someone told me that the love I felt for Sean when we were engaged would fade and that I would not adore him as much as I did then. My love for him is anything but faded. I love, admire, and adore him more each day. Happy 2 years love! 

My Wedding Dress Fits Again!!!

Enjoying the delicious breakfast Sean made me

and my roses Sean bought me :) Beautiful

Things I gained from pregnancy (besides the obvious)

Warning: This post may include TMI (too much information) There are little red * next to those bullet points. 

Two weeks ago there was a possibility that I could have gotten pregnant again. For days after I relived how awful pregnancy was in my mind. There were months of barely moving because of nausea, not exercising, blowing up like a balloon, feeling lonely and ugly, dealing with all the extra emotions, not being able to do very much, the muscle pain etc. I wondered why pregnancy was so easy for some women. How some just get a little nauseous and eat a lot more and don’t gain much weight, whereas I was eating less and throwing up not just the food but also the bile from my empty stomach all day long and yet gaining a ton of weight. How for some women emotions just become like mine are every day of my life. Anyways, I was starting to get very bitter and I asked God why. Well….here are some things Sean and I discussed and they help me feel a lot better. I have frequently asked God to help me be a better wife and maybe getting pregnant was a good way to do it….although not during the pregnancy of course.

Things I gained from being pregnant

•     I don’t move as much when I sleep so Sean has an easier time sleeping in the same bed as me.
• ·            My cramps during my period are no longer the writhing-in-pain experience they use to be and with pain medicine I can’t feel them at all.

•        While losing my pregnancy weight gain I learned of several food allergies. I use to have extreme stomach pain daily and now it is a rare occurrence.
•      Because I was so morning sick I would throw up when I moved I decided to sit still a lot. As a result my knees finally recovered from their overuse injuries. So no more persistent knee pain.
• *    I have a lower sex drive. (this is a very good thing since that has been an extreme point of frustration)
• *   Sean enjoys having sex with me more because it is very rarely painful.
• ·         I feel more confident and less self conscious about my body and when I look good I know I look good. When I don’t look good it is not as depressing.
• ·         Because my medicine was only half as effective during pregnancy and now it is full dose again I do a much better job calming myself than I use to.
• ·         It is hard to doubt my purpose in life when I am constantly taking care of a baby.
• ·         I no longer doubt Sean’s love for me and I am not scared of him deciding to leave me.
• ·         I have a stronger testimony of God’s love for me, that he answers prayers, and that he watches over those who seek to do his will.
• ·         I have greater faith in people. There are people out there who are loving and Christ-like and are good friends.
• ·         Last but not least I gained a beautiful daughter. Her smile lights up my world and I love watching her learn all these new things. Day after day she amazes me and the longer she is with me the more I realize how empty my life was before. I was meant to be a mom. I love spending every minute of every day with her. I love having her crawl after me and pull herself up while holding onto my pants. I love reading with her and making buildings for her to wreck. I even love sitting next to her so she can hand me the CD’s she pulls off the shelf. I love watching her bounce along with me when I play Dance2 on the Wii. I am amazed at the love I feel for her and the love my mom must feel for me. I hope she never outgrows loving me. I love getting her from her crib in the morning and the smile she gives. It is as if I have given her the most wonderful gift in the world.

Maybe pregnancy is not so bad after all. Maybe I will forgive the people who don’t have horrible pregnancies; honestly I would not wish my pregnancy on anyone. I get confused when people say they want their children to go through the same thing they had to go through. So far that certainly is not the case for me. I think I would rather be under appreciated than watch my daughter be that sick for that long…but who knows I guess that could change. 

Miss Sienna

My sister-in-law came up with the great idea of adding her baby's name into songs. Here is my latest rendition of Rubber Ducky. In other news Sienna now waves hi, bounces, and lingers near or around me a lot.

The Learning Curve

Sienna is learning new things everyday and it is hard to keep up. Here is a video of her doing squats :)

Carrots

The videos in order are: Sienna eating carrots (her favorite food so far), Sienna playing with cornstarch, Sienna saying mom, Sienna standing and saying mom, and Sienna trying to get my computer.

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Crawling

Sunday October 7th during conference Sienna decided it was time to crawl. She had been on her hands and feet for about a month (starting at 5 months) but she held off on crawling until I broke my toe and started crawling around to not put weight on it. She was 6 months and 1 week old. :)